I took my first ride of the season yesterday, and boy was it fun. Mardi and I are fair-weather riders, so needless to say, we don’t put many miles on Colin and Angus between November to April. We also have these kids that like to make us chauffeur them around everywhere, so sometimes it isn’t always easy to find the time. Either way, it seems like there is always some reason I don’t ride as much as I want to. I probably shouldn’t have yesterday either…my three kids all had friends or neighbor kids over, so I left my poor husband to look after about seven (or was it eight?) kids by himself. Nevertheless, I took advantage of his generosity and headed to the barn.
I’m not gonna lie, I still get nervous riding sometimes, especially after a few months off. Something about getting on a 1500 pound animal that has a mind of his own, and has been known to freak out at imaginary monsters on the other side of the fence. Mardi and I didn’t even start riding until our 30’s, and sometimes I wonder what we were thinking! Wait…I know. We pictured ourselves moseying along a trail on a horse with nerves of steel, who never would dream of spooking. Well…that was just plain naive. It’s gonna happen sooner or later. And it has. Even if you’ve had way more successful rides than scary ones, it’s so easy for your mind to go back to those scary times when you put your feet in the stirrups.
Riding has definitely shown me how rewarding it can be to step out of my comfort-zone. I have never considered myself adventurous or brave, and I’m still not. But I saddle up despite my fears because it’s too fun not to. And I don’t want the what-ifs to control my life and steal my joy. What if I fall and get hurt? What if something happens to one of my kids? What if we start a blog and nobody reads it and it’s a total failure? I could go on forever. But that isn’t what God wants for us, thankfully. He reminds us over and over again in the Bible not to live in fear. Here are two of my favorite verses about conquering fear and remembering that God is with me wherever I am…even on the back of a horse!
And what if I don’t fall…or fail? What if I put my trust in God and do my best and just enjoy the ride?